most of my scars stay close to my heart

there is a time for change and it's finally found me

i am beginning anew

who i've become is collapsing the world around me

and distorting my perception of life

i've reached a point where the weight of myself is crushing inward

here i touch reality

as a personal super nova breaks down the walls i've built

and the misconceptions i've swallowed fervently

i touch to stay rooted

to not lose myself

while i find myself

i'm opening the scars long past

and allowing it all to slip away

it's time to face what takes my breath

what steals my dreams

and what's devouring our connection whole

i have allowed a disease to overcome me

to darken my thoughts

and empty me out

i will not be this broken shell of who i used to be any longer